This week has been an emotional and physical roller coaster. My normal routine was thrown out the window on Monday, and it didn’t return until this morning. I don’t deal well with chaos, or what I perceive as a lack of control in my life. However, I rolled with it, and came up with some … More Surviving The Absence Of Control: My Week Of The Missing Routine
I’ve finally made the decision to grow out my silvery gray and black hair. I’ve been preparing myself for this change a year now, researching all the possibilities of how to do this as gracefully as possible. While finding articles on different ways to go about it, I dug a bit deeper, seeking words from … More Searching For Silver: The Journey Begins
I woke up this morning with a thick layer of sludge in my coffee cup. Not literally, but that’s how I describe the feeling I have when I wake up feeling shitty. Today something is rendering me off balance, and I don’t know, yet, what’s bothering me. I feel agitated, down, disturbed and upset. … More Sludge In My Coffee Cup
A simple, disjointed, telling memory… Somehow, as a pre-teen, I ended up with my own room. My three brothers shared the room next to mine; my two sisters next to my brothers, and my parents next to theirs. This brought about confusing feelings in my pre-adolescent brain…pride, relief and guilt. I had my own room, … More They Grow Back, Don’t They?
I was diagnosed with depression many years ago. It began when I was nine, and has been a constant, lurking shadow throughout my life. In the early nineties, I was prescribed medication to treat my dark-pit mood and suicidal thoughts . It worked, but eighteen months later, I realized that I felt like a walking … More Depression’s Downward Spiral; Climbing My Way Back UP!
It happened slowly, methodically, almost painlessly. The debilitating pain would come later, when I became aware of the successful severance of my vocal cords. The right to speak up for myself. It has left me with a diminished ability to defend myself against both the benign and the most pathological of predators. One day recently … More Voice Lessons